I’ve always been a dreamer.
Photography enables me to capture the world how I dreamed it would be as a child. Through that viewfinder I can capture anything. Open your mind and realize that (most often) rectangle can capture anything you want, if you frame it in THAT space. How amazing is that thought?
‘Art’ frustrated me from a young age. I’d paint and draw but I would always feel restricted, I longed to find MY way of sharing my creativity. Art as a subject was very concise, you had to paint in a certain way of it to be correct, my grades were often low on my art because I’d try and create something unique – most often to please myself, but to rebel against what the teacher wanted me to do. Seeing everyone in my classroom painting the same Van Gogh style vase with wilting flowers drained my creativity.
I have always followed my dreams, sometimes it’s bad to chase your young ideality but from an early age I knew what I wanted. School depressed me, I was bullied for being different. I dyed my hair dark at an early age, wore dark make up and over-sized clothes, i desperately did not want to fit in so I rebelled against everything i knew. I thought differently. I wouldn’t attend academic classes because I didn’t feel like I understood or even so wanted to understand. I’d question everything in my head.
In the end my teachers would accept I was working on my photography and I’d wander to the computer rooms instead of class to browse inspiring art or to retouch my work.
My escape from reality in turn was always through my photography.
On the day I picked up my first camera, I realized it wad a door to many things. It instantly clicked.
Dreams are meant to be followed if you want to fulfill your life. My nightmare scenario would be to be too comfortable with life. Don’t get me wrong I truly admire those that can work 9-5 routine jobs and live happily in small towns with a family. However, for me that would be a living nightmare, I’d feel very trapped and lifeless. At seventeen, I lived that life for a brief period of time, I realized instantly it wasn’t for me. I am not the type of person to be tied down and constrained, I long to be free. You only live one life: In my life, I want to make an inspiring journey.
I have been greatly inspired by ‘The Law If Attraction’. If you live by the thought that your positivity and energy is in turn bringing you more of this, you WILL see results.
“Anything in your life you want to change, you can — simply by understanding the Law of Attraction, and choosing to deliberately change your thoughts and constantly reach for the thought that feels better. The way you predominantly feel about any given subject is your barometer for knowing what your balance of thought is on that subject. The circumstances of your life is another indicator. If you’re ever wondering which end of the barometer your thoughts are on, check in with your emotions. Your emotions never lie about the way you are flowing your energy” – http://www.law-of-attraction-info.com/
I have only lived twenty years, but in the last quarter of my life I have discovered so much about myself. People have entered and left my life, I’ve had a near death experience, I’ve loved and lost, I am very spontaneous (a Leo trait), this means I often jump into things very quickly and without much though – and when things go wrong I learn the hard way. However, through all experiences I have been taught something good or bad and ultimately this has took me further up the path towards my ultimate goal. I have let go of negative energy by teaching myself to think about every experience as a learning curve, every experience has shaped me in my life someway and without this, I might not be who I am or where I am today. In the past three months.
If you want something in life, reach out and grab it. That star might be far away, but take little steps gradually towards it. You may be restricted by finances or commitments but everyday question yourself and say ‘have I done something towards my goal today?’.
Remember, follow your dreams and in return they will follow you.
Michelle: You have inspired me so much with your artwork and your photos. You make me strive to not only be a better person but a person who lives life to the fullest <3 and for that I thank you (July 6, 2010 4:16 pm)
Tayla: the journey is what matters most, enjoy every minute. your work is incredible, with you talent and determination you will get to wherever it is that you want to be :) (July 1, 2010 11:30 am)