Ever since I was a little girl I always dreamed of having my own wonderland to such an extreme I’d go searching for it.. I was brought up watching fantasy movies – I didn’t want to be Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty or Ariel, I wanted to be Alice and my dream was to find my own wonderland. I often wondered how I’d find it, I’d spend days thinking about a world far from this bland reality we called earth. I wondered if there was an escape, a void, a secret door, a hole in this world I could escape into. I didn’t care what was behind it, that was the fun part – I needed to find it. I wanted it so much I’d actually crawl underneath the small gap underneath my bunk bed to see if there was a secret world, I’d look inside the closet, past my grandma’s fur coats hoping to touch snow and feel the chill on my skin from Narnia, I’d make dens and tree houses in forests and role play a different world. I’d swim every Saturday underwater and see how long I could hold my breath, dance with my eyes closed and my ears filled with the sound of beautiful music: I’d make different worlds in different scenarios.
I am still that little girl, dreaming. However, I’ve come to realize what I was searching for was right in front of me, I can make my world, my vision – right in my camera. I may not be in it, but I can create my vision. I can take that vivid imagination, pinpoint the exact moment, sketch is down, write ideas and then put that image to life.
(Photo above is of me and my sister around the age of four & five playing dress up)